Where's David, the Son My Dad Abandoned?
I found out about David through my mom when I was younger. I don’t know how old he was, but I do know that David and his mom lived near us at one point because she wanted to keep their relationship alive. I also know my dad told the woman my mom didn’t want him to have anything to do with David. It was a lie. He wanted to evade responsibility and needed a scapegoat. Did I mention my dad is a known liar? I wish I had the courage to ask more questions of my mom that day, but the air was thick in the room. It seemed very much like information my dad didn’t want me privy to and I was surprised by the reveal. Questions might have broken up some details. Questions may have made her realize that what she was spilling shouldn’t have been told. So I didn’t pry and I never said anything to my dad. I did leave the room, however, internally disheveled. I felt a bit sick to my stomach. I felt a bit angry. But I was also relieved David didn’t have to grow up with my dad. Some nights I wondered where David was and how he was doing. I wondered if his life turned out well, if he beat the odds being a fatherless black man and all. I don’t think I’ll ever know. My mom and I talked about David recently and whether we should look for him. What would be the point? My dad has returned to the man he was when I was a kid (Alzheimer’s did that). David would be set up for a world of hurt. I imagined David expressing himself to my father, telling him how his departure hurt. I could see him having a glimmer of hope that they could mend things. He sadly wouldn’t get that. David would walk away crushed and regretful. I wouldn’t want to do that to him. But it doesn’t mean I can’t speak to him now. David, wherever you are, you have a sister who loves you. I pray you are well. I pray you’ve healed and are raising a family with all the love dad never gave you. I pray you’re successful and have a flourishing career. I pray your childhood was filled with fun memories. I pray God filled the holes of your heart.