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Where's David, the Son My Dad Abandoned?

I found out about David through my mom when I was younger. ⁣ ⁣ I don’t know how old he was, but I do know that David and his mom lived near us at one point because she wanted to keep their relationship alive.⁣ ⁣ I also know my dad told the woman my mom didn’t want him to have anything to do with David. ⁣ ⁣ It was a lie. He wanted to evade responsibility and needed a scapegoat. Did I mention my dad is a known liar? ⁣ ⁣ I wish I had the courage to ask more questions of my mom that day, but the air was thick in the room. ⁣ ⁣ It seemed very much like information my dad didn’t want me privy to and I was surprised by the reveal. ⁣ ⁣ Questions might have broken up some details. Questions may have made her realize that what she was spilling shouldn’t have been told. So I didn’t pry and I never said anything to my dad. ⁣ ⁣ I did leave the room, however, internally disheveled. I felt a bit sick to my stomach. I felt a bit angry. But I was also relieved David didn’t have to grow up with my dad. ⁣ ⁣ Some nights I wondered where David was and how he was doing. I wondered if his life turned out well, if he beat the odds being a fatherless black man and all.⁣ ⁣ I don’t think I’ll ever know. ⁣ ⁣ My mom and I talked about David recently and whether we should look for him.⁣ ⁣ What would be the point? My dad has returned to the man he was when I was a kid (Alzheimer’s did that). David would be set up for a world of hurt.⁣ ⁣ I imagined David expressing himself to my father, telling him how his departure hurt. I could see him having a glimmer of hope that they could mend things.⁣ ⁣ He sadly wouldn’t get that. David would walk away crushed and regretful. I wouldn’t want to do that to him.⁣ ⁣ But it doesn’t mean I can’t speak to him now.⁣ ⁣ David, wherever you are, you have a sister who loves you. ⁣ ⁣ I pray you are well. I pray you’ve healed and are raising a family with all the love dad never gave you.⁣ ⁣ I pray you’re successful and have a flourishing career. I pray your childhood was filled with fun memories. I pray God filled the holes of your heart. ⁣

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